UNAWARE.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

lalala.
its pathetic,
i am pathetic.
i dont get myself.
why im feeling this way & stuff.
like everything isnt going how i wanted it to.
i know i sound like a selfish brat, who always get what she wanted.
but, reality is far from that, really.
you know, the feeling of having many many friend, but none of them you can really confide in?
like, tell them about EVERYTHING.
if you have one, good for you.
cos ive been craving for one.
i know my character is dull.
everything i do, everything i say, isnt interesting.
im not all that humourous, im not all that pretty & awesome.
but, deep down, im something else.
or maybe not.
i can say i hate myself for not being so open, & stuff.
when im with them, i couldnt speak their language, act like they do.
all i did was, trying to fit in.
& now, im completely worn out.
i feel like i dont belong with them.
god, why does it seemed so hard for me?
why am i such an introvert?
why cant i just express my true self to everyone?
why am i trying hard to please everyone else, other than myself?
i dont understand this.
why am i made this way?
im no where superior.
im no where exciting.
im no where nice to be with.
just who the heck am I?
sometimes, i wonder why im trying to be someone else im not.
why must i put on a mask in front of everybody else.
its painful to let it all out, but even more painful to keep it all inside.
life's a torture.
sometimes i do wonder why,
why i have strangers as friends,
& acquaintances as goodfriends, or bestfriends.
i dont get why im even there.
they all know so little about me.
who's there to talk to?
who's there to confide in everything?
why am i still stuck in that little hole?
when will i ever come out of it?
the feeling's torturous.
i dont want to care about what other people think, or say.
but, i just cant help it.
is it just my fault, or something else is holding me behind?
i just dont get it.
& i doubt i ever will.

& its just temporary , ♥
5:44 AM

Friday, December 21, 2007

1. Do the following without complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
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Favourites
Colour: Red, Electric blue, White.
Food: Western.
Song: Tattoo by Jordin Sparks.
Movie: Movies.
Sport: Netball, Basketball.
Day of The Week: Thursday.
Season: Winter.
Ice-cream: Cuppucino.
CurrentsMood: Happy.
Taste: My Stawberry lip balm.
Clothes: Anything I like.
Desktop: idk.
Toenail: Pink?
Time: 1:04pm
Surroundings: Lakerol, Brother's phone, Psp, Mouse & speaker.
Annoyances: My nightmare last night.
Thoughts: I wanna lose 10kg.

First
Best Friends: Her name's Nabila. (k2)
Crush: His name's Arshad. (k2)
Movie: First? cant remember.
Lie: Im Fine. Dont worry.
Music:r&b, pop, and a little of rock.
LastsCigarette: Like. I. Would. Ever. SMOKE.
Drink(Alcohol): Im a goodgirl, please.
Car Ride: The day before yesterday.
Phone Call: Tinie.

Have you ever
Dated Your Best Friend: Drop it, okay.
Broken The Law: Haha.
Been Arrested: no.
Skinny-Dipped: Get my a dictionary.
Been On TV: HAHA.
Kissed Someone You Don't Know: Nope, & wouldnt wanna.
5 things you are wearing: 3-quarter pants, sleeveless top, Undies, Bra, & HAIR.
4 things you've done today: Woke up, Ate, Played games, Computer.
3 things you can hear right now: The fan, nth. & nth.
1 thing you do when you are bored: Jump on the bed, pretending to be a rockstar.

5 people to do this
` Een
` Fieh
` Syima
` Anna
` Timothy

BYEBYE:D

& its just temporary , ♥
8:56 PM

HEY.
syima got spammed by some guy named KJ.
which stands for, Kental Juboness, maybe.
shitty ass, dumping shit everywhere.
i wish i could shoot him with my toy gun for that.
& btw, he's COLOUR BLIND. let's shoot his eyeballs too.

next time that guy messes with my girlfriend,
i'll rip his ass off, i swear.
those litters deserves to be thrown in the garbage bin.
cockroaches.

mummy came back,
saying there was HUMAN SHIT in the lift.
even the buttons.
'eeeew' right.
if that person is just plain lazy & didnt care about people calling him PATHETIC, i wish he'll eat his own shit.
but if that person is homeless & poor, i feel sorry for him.
go to the government. they'll find ways to help you, okay.
dont shit anywhere. please. & i'll pray for you, well.

got a haircut yesterday.
happy, happy, happy.
BY THE WAY, ITS NOT BANGS.
NOT BANGS. NOT BANGS. NOT BANGS.
i never intended to get BANGS.
i dont like BANGS.
it is not BANGS.
dont call it BANGS, dont even COMMENT.

kay, im tired. byebye.

& its just temporary , ♥
6:02 AM

Sunday, December 16, 2007

HELLO PEOPLE OF EARTH.

what you see here is an example of idiots like myself trying to wreck their brains to get ideas of what the bleah to post for today.

SO, HEY.

im ashhy, & you?

IM SORRY. Idiots get too spastic, sometimes. For idiots like myself, that's a natural basis.

OKAY, I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL BASIS IS.

some intelligent smart allects, please tell me what it means.

hey wait, they're a pain in the ass. HAH.

damn, my blog is sooo dead. & IM CRACKING UP. HAHAHA.

i have pictures for everyone! :D

yeah, like as if you care.

EDITED USING PICASA. SO YES, FEEL FREE TO CONTRADICT.

& no, you cant get those pictures at toys'r'us.

im in my most bleah-ness mood.

so, yeah. dont mind if im too blunt, or too

i-cant-be-bothered-with-you-ish.

ohyeah, practically they mean the same.

currently looking for blogskins.

still wondering how to make one on my own.

what the hell.

what hell the.

the hell what.

hell the what.

PLEASE BLAME ME FOR MY STUPIDITY.

going to aunt's birthday celebration.

lalala.

eating SEAFOOD! @ i dont know where.

so, please hope that it'll be fun.

everything seemed to be a bore, nowadays.

I WANT OGURI SHUNNNNNNNNNNNN~

so hot. so cute. so wow. ~~so kissable~~.

BYE, BYE & BYE, MANIACS OF EARTH.

GO KILL ANTS EVERYWHERE.

& its just temporary , ♥
12:20 AM